Tuesday, August 23, 2011
9 days ago something ended. with someone i really cared a lot about. a friend i really trusted. we fought, over texts, and we haven't.spoken.since. :/ but i can see what God did even there. it was hard and i cried so much but...
im ok now. because once i was out, i could see how much that relationship was unhealthy. we were not going good places. it started out good and then something changed. i guess i was holding on with blind hope that someday things would go back to the way they were.
and then reality shattered that lie that i was holding onto.
i dont regret it though. how could i? a bad relationship was ended. it hurt like crazyyy...and now im ok. cuz i see how things were headed in the completely opposite direction that i wanted. im glad that, since it was obviously gonna end, that it ended now instead of later when id gotten more attached.
i DO regret some choices i made, like choosing to share things with her....
but oh well. its too late now.
i can accept it and move on and try to learn from it. <3