Tuesday, August 23, 2011

9 days ago something ended. with someone i really cared a lot about. a friend i really trusted. we fought, over texts, and we haven't.spoken.since. :/ but i can see what God did even there. it was hard and i cried so much but...
im ok now. because once i was out, i could see how much that relationship was unhealthy. we were not going good places. it started out good and then something changed. i guess i was holding on with blind hope that someday things would go back to the way they were.
and then reality shattered that lie that i was holding onto.
i dont regret it though. how could i? a bad relationship was ended. it hurt like crazyyy...and now im ok. cuz i see how things were headed in the completely opposite direction that i wanted. im glad that, since it was obviously gonna end, that it ended now instead of later when id gotten more attached.
i DO regret some choices i made, like choosing to share things with her....
but oh well. its too late now.
i can accept it and move on and try to learn from it. <3


*Lizzie* said...

God didn't promise days without pain,
laughter without sorrow, sun without rain,but he did promise strength for the day,comfort for the tears and light for the way. If God brings you to it, He will
bring you through it.

Kaitlyn Nicole said...

I felt every word you just said. And even though this is embarrassing, tears are coming to my eyes as I write this! Because it still kind of hurts. Like yes, I'm glad I'm out..but still. I have these "what ifs" and guilt trips I put myself on. It's dumb, I know. Anyways. I'm glad you moving on! Such a crucial piece of our lives, isn't it?

Han and Momo said...

Lizzie, i love that! and its so true!! Thank you for sharing! :)

Kaitlyn, i seriously relate to what you just wrote. cuz i still cry over whats lost too sometimes. i feel like its going to hurt for a while. and i feel like crying and hurting is part of the healing process we have to go through. moving on is sooo hard, especially if you keep replaying memories and wishing you could go back to when everything was right. and its not dumb, i totally get where you are coming from! but we will get thru this stuff and life will go back to normal. we didn't need these people before we knew them and we don't need them now <3

Kaitlyn Nicole said...

well said :)