ya know, i used to treat this thing like my journal. i still do sometimes. but i have a separate journal now. not everything i feel belongs on this blog.
but gosh, if you could see my journal, you'd see how truly broken and scared i am right now. i know i don't have time for this, got places to be and people to see.
thats another thing. i write in my journal at 11, 12, 1am because i just don't have time during the day, but i just cant sleep without getting my feelings out.
and i DEFINITELY cant be online at 1am! lol
so i know i sound broken on here, but trust me, it gets worse.
and i usually don't let people see my broken. cuz, c'mon, who wants a friend like that?
but i have a relationship thats BASED off vulnerability.
things i need to say?
I HATE MYSELF FOR MY INABILITY TO TRUST;
AND I HATE THAT PEOPLE HAVE BROKEN ME TO THE POINT WHERE TRUST BECOMES NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE.