Saturday, April 2, 2011

allow me a moment to wallow, for i have nowhere else to go with these feelings.

once again, its been a weekend about everyone but me. big surprise. and i know better than to wallow in self pity, but really, what else am i supposed to do with these feelings? because i cannot share how i really feel here. i wear the uniform smile. but the problem is, its coming undone. the threads are pulling and its definitely wearing thin. i hate to rain on the parade. i hate to not be able to smile but its because i always DO…that people expect so much. i look like i can handle it, so they just pile it on. although sometimes i feel that no matter how i looked, people would do what they needed to suit their needs anyways.
some people anyways.
so what do i do? as i type this i can feel a whisper in my soul. give my cares to Him. i know.
but pressures..stress…and i am ready to explode. could He really just take all that from me? 
i decided to seek comfort from the Psalms, as i could feel a nudge in me to do so. and comfort i did find. but im still not sure of what to do or where to go. i shouldn't say that, actually. i know WHAT to do. i simply do not understand the details and the specifics.

7 comments:

Lady Florimel said...

I wrote you a kinda long comment on my blog (should have done it on here but didn't think about that at the time!!) :) so, yeah, just telling ya! haha :)

Lady Florimel said...

P.S.
I am sorry you are going through some hard things dear! Let's plan a date and talk it over! <3 <3 <3

Han and Momo said...

Thanks!! hehe i will go to yours and read it!! ♥ i appreciate it, thanks!! i would love to get together!! i will message you the days (few as they are this month!!) that i have open and we will definitely get something on the calendar! :)

*Lizzie* said...

Love your new template!!!!!! SO CUTE!! :D

Han and Momo said...

Lizzie!! Hi!! :D awwh thanks! your sister directed me towards the site for the templates!! :) so many good ones to choose from! its nice to see you on here! :)

*Lizzie* said...

Hey! Thanks for your comment on my blog =) it made my week! Feel free to follow my three blogs! (Love new followers =D)
Here is the link to the two other blogs of mine.
http://myimaginaryhorse.blogspot.com/
and the other link is
http://thewondersofchrist.blogspot.com/
Thanks!!!!

Han and Momo said...

i would love to follow your blogs!! :) going to click flow right now :)