Saturday, October 30, 2010

Second Chance

fall leaves fallin and crunching under my feet every step i take
i'd walk 150 miles to come see you if  i knew what difference it would make
but ill tell the truth im scared to see you
just when i think ive done all the damage i could possibly do
broken every heart that stood in my path
i had to get to you no matter the cost
when i lay down tonight to reminisce, ashamed im sure ill be
i remember standin in front of you 
next thing i know we're screamin
i'd have slapped me if i were you
lookin back now i almost wish you wouldn't have just taken it like the man you are
sure that proved nobility i'd be lying to say you dont have the purest heart

my fists hit the table in pain from the memories i want it to all disappear
i really wish i could just take back all the hate i spelled in fear
i didnt mean to hurt you i was scared and hurt myself
i wouldn't care this much if i'd have hurt anyone else
but do you know what it took to get to that place
and then i ruined it all screamin in your face
you didnt have to take it but it the way you did showed real maturity
and even now as im wishin you'd have stood up to me
i know why you did what you did and thats what ive always loved about you
i just wished i could've proven
what i came there to show you wasn't how mean, i could be
cuz that was meaner than, i've ever been
and to think the one i love was the one who walked away with a knife in his back
i should've been this partner protectin him from attacks
watchin his back
not stabbin him with his own spear 
he said he loved me and i threw it back in his face
and now i have the nerve to wish he was still here
when i was the one who messed things up in the first place
my behavior was outta line
i know i might not get a second chance this time

2 years of workin up the nerve 
ruined in 2 minutes of hate laced words
i pulled you on the bridge stepped off and broke it to pieces
let you fall into the chasm as i stood watchin
i know what i did was unforgiveable
if i had the chance for a do over
do you think i'd take it
no, now you think i hate you
baby i know i made you think that
it takes a lot of nerve comin back
if you wanna yell thats fine
i deserve it i wont wimp out this time
i tell you say what you need to but you dont say anything at all
and i realize thats cuz i ran away before you even had a chance to even process it all


my fists hit the table in pain from the memories i want it to all disappear
i really wish i could just take back all the hate i spelled in fear
i didnt mean to hurt you i was scared and hurt myself
i wouldn't care this much if i'd have hurt anyone else
but do you know what it took to get to that place
and then i ruined it all screamin in your face
you didnt have to take it but it the way you did showed real maturity
and even now as im wishin you'd have stood up to me
i know why you did what you did and thats what ive always loved about you
i just wished i could've proven
what i came there to show you wasn't how mean, i could be
cuz that was meaner than, i've ever been
and to think the one i love was the one who walked away with a knife in his back
i should've been this partner protectin him from attacks
watchin his back
not stabbin him with his own spear 
he said he loved me and i threw it back in his face
and now i have the nerve to wish he was still here
when i was the one  who messed things up in the first place
my behavior was outta line
i know i might not get a second chance this time

i dont deserve it i know
i dont deserve nothin from you at all
baby… i'll cry but that wont ever be enough
i could so many tears id create a flood
but that would just sweep you away
you'd probably drown lookin at my face
and once again i'd be the death of you
and you'd die never knowin the truth
as it stands you still dont know
you let me yell and then you let me go
and that is all my fault 
i took this way too far
and…im sorry
those 2 words never seemed so heavy
i carried them all this way just to say to you baby
but i'd do it all again
i'd do anything just to be forgiven
but you say "you already did enough"
then you slam the door to your house
and im left alone again still hatin myself for what i did to you
im not askin you to love me cuz that i have no place to do
i just want you to know how much im sorry
and i miss you every day more and more

my fists hit the table in pain from the memories i want it to all disappear
i really wish i could just take back all the hate i spelled in fear
i didnt mean to hurt you i was scared and hurt myself
i wouldn't care this much if i'd have hurt anyone else
but do you know what it took to get to that place
and then i ruined it all screamin in your face
you didnt have to take it but it the way you did showed real maturity
and even now as im wishin you'd have stood up to me
i know why you did what you did and thats what ive always loved about you
i just wished i could've proven
what i came there to show you wasn't how mean, i could be
cuz that was meaner than, i've ever been
and to think the one i love was the one who walked away with a knife in his back
i should've been this partner protectin him from attacks
watchin his back
not stabbin him with his own spear 
he said he loved me and i threw it back in his face
and now i have the nerve to wish he was still here
when i was the one  who messed things up in the first place
my behavior was outta line
baby, i know i don't deserve a second chance this time

<3

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