i miss the old days..

August...september...even june and july. What a nightmare october was. ...but i wish it had only been a nightmare. No, it was reality. I lived it, WE lived it.. And we've been forever changed since. ...i hate it. Like, more than ive ever hated anything. I miss that sense of security i had with you. I miss the love, the craziness, those magical carefree days of summer. Our inside things, skype dates, just...everything. I miss it all. Its not that i didnt know what i had.. Its just that i never knew i stood to lose it.