"You are more than the choices that you've made, you are more than the sum your past mistakes..."

what if i told you? what if i told you that i wasn't perfect? lots of people would be shocked. i don't even know why, its just this assumption that people have made about me.
but what if i want to tell you the truth? what would you say?
can i be honest? i have heard that honesty draws people closer. but i have never been good at that. i have never been good at revealing my true self. because, and i think this is true for everyone, to some degree, is that the real us can be ugly. uglier than the person we pretend to be. or maybe its not even pretend. but its just another side of us. we only display the pretty. the ugly remains underneath. underneath the surface. and since most relationships are surface-based...
no one ever sees.
but i want you to see. i want to have the kind of friendship that goes deeper than superficiality.
i want to be able to talk to someone, to know there will always be someone there..
but i also want to BE that friend.
no judgement. no superficiality.
honest love.
♥