Sunday, May 15, 2011

"I don't wanna be afraid, i wanna wake up feeling beautiful, today..."

I am never going to be better than anyone, so i might as well give up trying.

But the truth? The truth is that i don't even want to be better than them. It's not a goal of mine. I just want everyone to see that i'm not going to BE anyone else...
and to accept me just the same.

but thinking about all of this has raised some questions for me. One in particular.

Why do we spend so much of our lives comparing ourselves to other people, or allowing others to compare us and then trying to live up to their standards?

I mean, if i am sitting here and saying in all honesty that i don't even want to be them, then why do i constantly worry about measuring up in the eyes of ignorant people? Or any people, for that matter?

What if life goes beyond this? What if God is just sitting up there waiting for me to come to Him? To realize that, hey, maybe there is more to my life than being compared to someone i don't even want to become. 
And sure, they're not all bad. That's not what i'm saying. Yeah, there are certain things about them that i don't like and don't ever want to become!
But the point of this really has nothing to do with ANYone else. 
The point of that maybe, just maybe, I am sick and tired of trying to be everyone else.
And, for once, i just want to be me.

I pray that that'll be good enough.
I pray....that I'll be good enough.
And if i'm not, then there's the door.
I won't put up with this...a single second more.


*Lizzie* said...

hey morgan,
i just commented on your last post. so please read it =)

Han and Momo said...

Hey Lizzie! I did read it and responded on your Wonders of Christ blog :) Thank you so much!! <3