Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Today is the first day...of the rest of our lives...the past is in the past, the future's in my eyes...

I am done trying to figure people out. Its just going to be what it is. Anyone that cant accept me for me doesn't deserve to have me in their life. And its not cuz i think i am just like this amazing person that everyone wants to have in their lives. But because i do know i am worth more than some stupid game.
And maybe you do love me and maybe i do mean something to you. Or maybe i just did.
But regardless, that doesn't spill over into right now. And right now...
you just don't seem to care. Its like, everything we had...is gone. Its just not here anymore and i cant keep holding onto the dream that someday it will come back.

8 comments:

*Lizzie* said...

Well, you mean a lot to me that is for sure! :) I know what you mean, if people don't want to be my friend for silly reasons I don't care! I'm okay with that! :)
For I'm not here to be liked by everyone! But I'm here to show God's light!!! <3

Kaitlyn Nicole said...

Sometimes I feel like you must live in my brain or something, bc I sooo relate!! <3 idk the situation, but those feelings are exactly like mine! hope you can get closure with it all! The only thing worse than hurt feelings is unresolved feelings.

Han and Momo said...

Thank you Lizzie!! You also mean a lot to me, and i agree with what you said about not being here to be liked by everyone but to show God's Light :)
Kaitlyn...hehe that is so funny because i think the same thing when i read your blog!! Idk whats going on with you either but i also hope you can get the situation resolved. And you are completely right, though i had never thought of it before. The only thing worse than hurt feelings really IS unresolved ones.
The thing is...this girl was one of my best friends. I am just hurt because i feel like i don't know where we stand all of a sudden. I almost feel like id rather have hurt feelings than resolved ones right now...
because im afraid of what the resolved ones will be...

Kaitlyn Nicole said...

awww, Morgan, I'm so sorry! :( I feel like friends are supposed to be those people that never leave your side, but that couldn't be farther from the truth, could it? I'll be praying for that situation! I understand, because with college coming up and all I'm just not sure how all my friendships here will weather...hopefully they are strong enough to overcome some distance!

Han and Momo said...

Oh wow!! Yes i couldn't agree more. I have this twisted sort of fairytale in my head of how friendship should be. Im so sorry. I know how hard that can be...well, not the college part, but the leaving and wondering if things will be the same!! Thank you for your prayers, ill be praying for you as well! <3

*Lizzie* said...

Oh! I'm sorry Morgan! It is so hard when best friends step back and run. I truly know what you mean. I have had so many best friends go away and it hurts dreadfully! It is so hard when you call someone your best friend and they don't even really call you a friend. It is very hurtful and I know what you mean. I've been there done that.

Han and Momo said...

Oh thank you Lizzie!! I am so sorry you have had to go through it! I have too in the past, and i know its not easy!! I wouldn't say she is gone...just like i don't know where we stand right now. If you guys could pray for us that'd be amazing!! Thank you for all the love and support and encouragement! You guys mean a lot to me! <3

*Lizzie* said...

Yes of course I will pray for your friendship with her! I understand. Like some of my friendships they don't run from me I just don't know where our friendship stands anymore. But, yes I will pray for you!