Wednesday, November 10, 2010

"you can't grow old...with a beautiful idea

"im feelin like a star, you can't stop my shine, i'm lovin cloud nine, my head's in the sky, i'm solo, ridin solo...." <3
i AM alone. i am by myself but...maybe that's not a bad thing, i mean, i am only like dying without you here, but there has got to be a way to make this work. because you are not here, i am not there, blah blah blah...i've only said this stuff like 6,000,000,000 times!! 
maybe i need to embrace the fact that i am single...ridin solo.


 i miss you.


did you know that?? yea, well i do. i have been thinking lately, and i am almost glad that i haven't seen you in a while, cuz lately i feel like if i did see you...i'd have to tell you. i'm not sure i could keep it in...given the opportunity to let it out. 
ahhhhhhh, do you even know...what you do to me? how much it hurts being without you? and maybe...all this time i have devoted to dreaming about you and maybe i have wrecked it. because maybe when i see you again, you won't be everything i remembered. maybe i have dreamed up a completely new, perfect and unrealistic person...and just given him your name. these sun rays...piercing through my window...and being without you...piercing through my heart. 
i miss you like crazy, but can anybody tell me, if i am really missing you? or am i missing, instead, what i made you out to be..? is it really you i love? is it really you that i want to love me? or am i simply in love with the idea? "you can't grow old, with a beautiful idea" 
wow.
do i want to be loved so desperately...or do i love you?? why can't i even tell?? argh! this only irritates me LIKE CRAZY!!!


i love...you...?  <3

2 comments:

Kaitlyn Nicole said...

haha i have been in this situation so many times. i can relate!!

(not that i'm like "experienced"!!! haha. not even close.)

Hannah and Morgan said...

haha, oh i know! and the only thing i have experience with is daydreaming. i am a master at that ;) haha.