Sunday, August 22, 2010

I believe in love

There's a few things I regret this summer. One is working so much that I completely missed it. The second is all those friends and family and just people i wanted to spend time with an didn't.
But the one thing I won't regret;
Is falling in love.
I am 16. Have I ever been in love? Most people would say probably not. But who cares what most people say. All I know is what I feel. And when I like someone, it feels like love to me. And yes, I know love is more than just a feeling. I know it's an action. And I also know that Hollywood has made it out to just be a feeling. An emotion. 
"This is my favorite song for you. It makes me smile and it makes me dream.
I wish you'd listen to it and think of me..."

"We could keep things just the same
Leave here the way we came
But I don't want to 
if you don't want to
I've got your ring around my neck
And a couple of nights I dont regret..."

How about a life we don't regret. Cuz yea, at the time, you don't regret those nights. No on ever does. But eventually... All I'm asking for is a life with no regrets...
Ok, get real. I know. 
I feel like I need to take a chance. To let the opportunity present itself. 
To let love in. Quit shutting myself off and...

Let someone love me.
Because, ultimately, that's what I want. 
So why do I make it so that can never happen?

"You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded.."    
There is always a reason. A reason for shutting people out. I think for me it's because I'm afraid you'll shut me out. So I beat you to it... I don't wanna get hurt. I don't want you to choose me and then figure out I'm not all you thought... And leave me. And break me. I don't want you to break me, so I don't let you near me. 
Insecurity. Fear. Me. 

"I was a flight risk with a fear of falling..."
Who hasn't been afraid. To fall. In love. But I bet it will be incredible. Something we will never know if we let fear control how we live our lives. Remember, you only get one life. Why not fill it with as much love as we can?

"Wonderin' why we bother with love if it never last.."
But that's just it!! It will. When it is right. If you take care of the relationship and the other person. If you let God write your love story. 
You CAN have that fairytale.
I just wrote a song, called Fairytale Lies. But it's not what I believe! Not at all! But it's something we can believe. Kind of a trap we may fall into from time to time. 
It's about someone letting you down. And that messes you up because they were the reason you believed in love like that. They were your picture of a fairytale. And it's about how when they leave you start to believe it was all a lie. 
But I know it's not. It can't be. God has shown me real love, and ultimately, that's my real goal. 
To love like Him. And to be loved, the way He loves me  :)