Ive been up for about 27 hours straight. No.sleep. Welcome to a youth group lock in..haha! Anyways, i feel like trying to make sense of my thoughts, when im THIS dead tired..is probably not gonna work out..:P lol. But i need to try. Because its been one heck.of 27 hours. I pray this doesnt fall into the wrong hands. Im scared to write this because i do not want someone who shoukdnt see this, to see it. But on that same hand, i need to get out my feelings. Sighh..i hate the days i didnt fall victim to censorship..:/ anyways..well i suppose all ill say is that i find it really hard to respect certain people, i really want to never set foot in there again, and i spent about 98.9% of my night miserable. From standing in a bathroom stall trying to suppress the tears i could feel coming, to faking a smile like i never have because he asked me what was wrong but i didnt want to hurt him so i lied..