Too Far Too Broken

i cant write this song.
i just cant do it.
it hurts too much.
its just too real.
i dont wanna dig up all those old emotions.
i didnt want to feel that way the first time and i sure as HECK dont ever want to feel it again.
but to write the song...i have to go back there.
to deal with this, i have to go back there.
this is how i deal. i know i need to do this.
but im scared.
im scared to dig up those old feelings. thoughts. memories. tears. emptiness. hurts. disappointments. lies. lines.
you.
im scared to remember you.