Its a gorgeous day. God is here. I can feel Him and sense His presence for the first time in months. Im in love with this day. Im smiling and happy. God knew i needed this. And not just on any day, but today. I needed to feel like this today. I was falling and struggling and, just as He promised He would, He saved me. Thank You Jesus <3

Your Will. Your Timing.

i can breathe. i smiled today and meant it. this may not last. but im grateful for it nonetheless. ♥

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

My best friend. ♥ No matter how many times i say it, it wont ever be enough to show how thankful i am. I praise God for blessing me with her. ♥ 

Smile:)

Can you imagine what the world would be like..if everyone smiled more..?

And meant it?

♥

Im thankful beyond belief for skype!!!XD i dont even know what id do without it!! <3

"Sometimes that mountain youve been climbing, is just a grain of sand.." <3

im super thankful for a brand new job. as well as, guys that give me hope that real men DO exist..hehe:)

"they dont like it, sue me..i swear to ya, ill be there for ya.." ♥

today im thankful for: a twin-like coworker who gets me so well and makes me feel so much better just by being around her:) and my best friend and all of our inside things that no one will ever get but that mean the world to us ♥

Today im glad that febraury feels more like march..hehe:)

I am thankful for a God that always provides for me. And for the amazing people He has placed in my life <3 im thankful for someone who will listen to anything i need to tell them and never, ever judges me <3

Ok, tryin something new.
as inspired by a friend who encouraged me to stop looking at the negatives.
everyday im just gonna post one thing im thankful for.
one thing that is good in my life.

today - im thankful for love. for the people in my life that know me inside and out and love me just.the.same. <3 and for God's Love that i can never deserve but that i can never lose either <3

do you have any idea how hard it is to do spanish homework, when everything in english doesnt even make sense to you??
much less trying to figure out another language.
me siento muy mal..
i definitely dont feel good right now.
everything is too much.
she asked me what was wrong. i thought i had been doing a good job covering. and she asked me how i was and i said ok. and she says i dont sound ok and asks whats wrong.
she can tell thru a text.
but i wrote it off as being stressed.
i guess i am.
she asked why..but i couldnt even say why.
i couldnt explain it.
i couldve but i...
was scared.
no entiendo.
i dont understand.
myself. this life. anything.
*huge sigh*
i dont know anything anymore.
im trying so hard to keep my head above water.
and just when i think maybe ive got it,
the water rises.
and i struggle all over again.
:'(
"tonight i wanna cry.."
maybe tonight is a good night to get back to my country love and listen to some sad songs and just..cry. its been awhile since i had a good cry. maybe it would actually do me some good.
buenas noches amigas <3

"I need you like a heart needs a beat, but it's nothing new.."

to most people, its scary to not get along with people.
for me, it scares me to be on good terms with people.
im scared to let people in. to let them get close.
to me, its more awful a feeling getting along with people, than fighting with them.
i fight it at every corner. i hate it..
no..i dont hate it..im scared of it.
so i run away.
from everything. from everyone. i like being alone better.

maybe because i know thats where ill end up eventually anyways.

and i dont care to get attached just to be left.
so i figure why bother.
..or i fear rejection.
im weak. and im battle scarred.
and so, to avoid further pain, i lock myself away.
"run away, run away like a prodigal.."
guess thats me..

"Id take another chance, take a fall take a shot for you..but im afraid..its too late."